I figured it out!

I'm suffering from the classic case of denial. Wow. You know, I thought I would be more than excited to finish school and finally get out of here, but I'm not. I still can't believe it's over. 10 years being stuck out here and going through so much and it's not at all sinking in that a) I'm moving back out East and b) High School's over. It doesn't feel to me that I will be leaving Calgary this fall either. Mind, I guess this couldn't be a case of denial since psychologically denial is the refusal to believe something bad. *shrugs*

I hate feeling like something terrible going to happen in the lead up to the day when I move. Mind, that's kind've been what usually happens with me---something incredibly happy is going to happen and then something bad happens which I suppose had led me to taking good news or extremely great events with this kind of doubt.

BTW, I think after I edited my English 30 personal response it still sounded bitter.

Also, the project for Mme Cox has alot of people partaking (5 or 6 confirmed emails...ish?) that it's making me extremely happy. I opened up Outlook and found all the new messages were about it. It's made me remember the day I gave mum a bracelet I had made for her and how extremely happy she was when I gave it to her in the hospital.

BTW:
38 Trojan horses and 8 viruses found on my old WinME so far.

It's mind boggling that it hasn't crashed yet.

So tomorrow's Social. Then nothing until Monday and then nothing until the 27th and 28th. Hopefully none of the topics won't make me go "Buh?" and I have an extension for CALM until Monday but I would love to get everything done by Friday.

And I'm also feeling strangely...apathetic is it? No, wierd. I'm going to put money down that it has to do with lack of sleep and having to write two pieces of writing and how annoyed I am with my silly cowardice.