Dec. 5th.

So normally, I would be a big ball of depression at this time of the year, every year since then. Today, I feel slightly forgetful and far from depressed--I even forgot today was the 5th.

Okay, nevermind. That 's a lie. I'm not not depressed, I am, just not really. Does that make sense? I'm stressed, but don't feel it and I don't feel at all ready for my German oral exam (I suck at memorizing lines, big time even if it is a group thing), I'm having immense troubles studying, organizing my textbook notes for Psychology and overall getting distracted at every oppurtune moment and re-watching episodes of Doctor Who I recorded onto my computer (Last night's episode was reminiscent of a Space-horror film mixed with very philosophical/semi-religious stuff (and the topic of how each sect--or in Doctor Who's case, how each galaxy, each planet, each civilization he's ever been to through the course of history and the universe--views the devil-type thing and how he and his people viewed the universe. Very fascinating) or just staring down at my laptop at the French assignment I need to get done for tomorrow which isn't really done.

I think I'm a big ball of confused. One big ball of confused and I have no idea what I should do today or how I should be acting right now. Or, well, I do know that I should go to Sociology in an hour for sure, but other than that, I dunno.

Well, I do need to get my buspass tonight...and "lunch" too. But yeah. Don't quite understand. Don't quite feel like doing much of anything yet I have to finish French, try and memorize my lines for German, study for Psychology along with German again and my two Sociology classes.

Wah, ramble, ramble, ramble, ramble...etc.

i have a tendency to be this vague, yes.